I guess this is normal. To get a little glum around your Birthday. Birthdays are like moving, or graduating from highschool, you find out who really cares. People can fake a friendship as easily as your goldfish can listen to your problems. Its when something big happens, that shines the light on the truth. Plus all the reflection that comes with age, isn't too helpful either.
We watch House every night, which makes me happy. I need that hour of TV before bed. When I get to sit and watch House, I know the day is over, and I can relax. Its like eating a bowl of ice cream after a marathon. School days are long. I slip through hallways and classes quietly, getting what needs to be done, done. I enjoy reading, eating, and tv. It is a very quiet life, but a pretty good one. No friendship drama, no busy weekends, just me, my family, and my thoughts.
Tommorow is Thanksgiving. It is totally freaking me out. It doesn't feel like Thanksgiving at all. I haven't been hyped for it by foodnetwork specials, or tantalizing target comercials, no pilgrims, no fall flags on my neighbors door, just snow and school. Tommorow the American embassy kids have the day off, while the rest of us will go on like it was a boring old Thursday. We are going to have a Thanksgiving with the church members on Saturday, and a family one on Sunday, which will be nice, just kinda weird, comsidering the fact that I still feel like I am having an out of body experiance.
Our Birthday is on Friday. Another school day. My mom bought us Haggen Daz pints for me and my sister. The pints where 20$ each. I could not believe it. Things are riducously expensive here. It will just make the ice cream more special. At school we have those big tall lockers, and its like a thing, where on your birthday, your friends decorate your locker with wrapping paper, printed pictures, and bows. I have a feeling that no ones going to do that for me. Its not a pity me thing, its just a fact when your new at a school/ new at a country. Things take time, and unfortunately for me, my sixteenth birthday will fall on that time of my life, where my friends all an ocean away. So I am guessing 'll be a little melancholy for a few days.
Another thing about having a birthday does, remind you who you really want to share it with. My family are the most important atendees, but it wouldn't be bad to some oregon buddies there too.
....and having to read "The Kite Runner" for English isn't really helping my mood either.
Oh! I forgot to mention Rachel's really awesome scottish english teacher ( she has excellent taste in film) let us borrow Goodbye Lenin, and the original Les Diaboliques( Mrs. Caskie said it wasn't the crappy one with Sharon Stone) . I can't wait to watch them and tell y'all what I think.
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